Written November 17, 2001
One understanding that has been presented to me through the Holy Spirit is as our consciousness awakens on higher levels; we see things in new ways. Even language is different. This becomes necessary in order to shake up our old way of thinking. This is what happened to me in 1998 when I had my major wake-up experience. The old concepts that I had, gave way to new ways of looking at them. Definitions of words were brought into question. This caused me to begin seeking. Thus I began I spiritual journey in earnest.
Everything that I thought I believed was brought into question. I became aware of messages being placed before me in the form of symbols. So then I began to realize that in order for me to understand the messages I had to understand the meaning of the symbols. This came at me from many different directions. This first set of symbols came to me through music, as a musician. These I have had surrounding me from the time I was a child. As I followed this stream of understanding, I was brought to the understanding of the nature of God as pure energy. Music is one of the expressions of this pure energy. This opened my consciousness to sacred geometry and the application of sacred science of the Intelligent Design of the Universe. Through this I was shown the patterns of the Universe repeated over and over from the infinite and translated to the finite, from the macrocosm to the microcosm. Everything created within the universe is reflected within our earth plane. That is where the saying “As above, so below” come from. Within sacred geometry branched the number stream and the language stream. I was shown that these evolved into two separate set of symbols. In the beginning the symbols that represented numbers also represented letters. This is how language evolved, not just on our planet, but also within the universe.
From there I was brought to the symbols of language and the alphabet. I was shown how the pattern of the vibrations actually created the forms (shapes) that we call the alphabet from the language of Light. This has now evolved into to separate streams of math, science and language. In the ancient Hebrew language the letters also represented numbers. These were important in their language, because there is a pattern within this that is a formula for the numbering of the verses in the scriptures. Within the verses themselves, the very letters, which make up the words have a pattern which meaning can be understood and validated. This formula is important to the “convincing of the Jews”. Joseph Smith understood this when he numbered the verses in the Book of Mormon as well as the revisions he did in the Holy Bible. These are some of the things that he taught in the School of the Prophets.
Within these streams of understanding there branched further divisions into science, physics, language arts. I followed the physics stream and came full circle from the other direction to the physics of PHI, quantum mechanics, the String Theory, the Theory of Everything.
Another experience that I had as part of the “wake-up experience” was remembering a past life. I had never considered this before this experience. But when I came face to face with my soul embodied in another time and place, I had to understand what this meant. Much to my surprise I discovered that the Roman Catholic Church removed all reference to reincarnation from the scriptures in 553 A.D. as a means of maintaining control over the masses. Prior to that time it was included in many writings and the belief was held by most cultures. If you know where to look, you can find some arcane references to this still within the scriptures. I have even found some in the Doctrine and Covenants.
Over the years I have had recurring dreams, one dream in particular that I remember having at a very young age. I did not understand the symbols of dreams nor realize that in these symbols were keys to unresolved events from a traumatic past life which cause had come forward for resolution. Once I understood the meaning of the symbols, I was able to clear this experience and release it through forgiveness. The point I am making here is not to convince anyone that re-embodiment of the soul in multiple lifetimes is a fact, because it can be explained in other ways. The point is how symbols were again placed before me as tools for understanding higher truths that would otherwise be hidden from view.
This brought me to another stream; how so many higher truths are hidden from view and can be found in so many interesting places. As I was following a lead of the esoteric meanings hidden within the game of chess, I also discovered that the Catechism was taught through the nursery rhymes in England after Catholicism was not allowed to be taught. Wow! That knocked me over and motivated me further. I asked the question, “Why do I have to spend so much energy to discover these things?” The answer was, “to see if you are serious about being on the path of the disciple”. Jesus talked in parables so those who can only handle milk will not be harmed in any way and those who are ready for the meat of the message will discover the meanings thereof according to their level of consciousness. I have found that even though I may think I am ready for a higher truth, it has actually been dangling in front of my face for quite a while and I did not recognize it. So the point is that we will only be able to recognize the deeper meanings when we have opened our hearts and minds to receive them. I call this a level of consciousness. We have these levels defined for us in the Doctrine and Covenants. They are called the 3 glories. Rather than thinking of them as a place we will be in the future, I have come to understand that they are levels or consciousness or attainment that we can experience right here and now while we are in embodiment. Lehi shares his experience regarding this in 2 Nephi. Later Nephi shared his father’s experience. As well as others. This is why the Book of Mormon is so important as a tool for the path of the disciple within our faith community.
I have been around the world in the last 4 years on a journey esoteric discovery. Even though I have sat in the presence of the Buddha and experienced the inner realm of meditation, danced the dervishes of the occult school of the Sarmong, stood at the base of the Mayan Temples and watched the Sun of the Spring Equinox rise; experienced a Druid initiation at Stonehenge, witnessed the initiation of another in the Temple of the Pyramid at Giza, which is the Temple of the Ascension; received a robe with a dragon on the back from an Oriental Master in acceptance as an initiate into the School of Mastery on the path of the disciple; walked the Native American path in ceremony under direction of my shaman teacher and my spiritual Native American Grandfather; I have come full circle back the home of my childhood, the path I was set on at the beginning of this embodiment.
What is the connection of all these experiences and understandings to the doctrine of my church?
The most recent experience and understanding through my Christing experience of my Divine Union with my God-Presence is the consciousness of the Celestial Kingdom. There are two streams that I have been directed to follow by the Holy Spirit.
The first is The Endowment which is common to both the RLDS and the LDS churches. As you stated in your responses, The Holy Spirit is an endowment, but that is not THE ENDOWMENT that I am referring to. I discovered a person within the Mormon Church who seemed had come to a similar level of consciousness as I have, Max Skousen. I found one of his books on the net called the TEMPLE ENDOWMENT. I downloaded it and read it. I found my own consciousness expressed in this material. I found out he had written additional material so I called him and ordered his other books. While I was on the phone with him we shared some of our experiences. His first experiences came in 1966 and The Temple Endowment was written in 1971. This material was so far beyond the consciousness of the Mormon Church, which he refers to as the “Preparatory Gospel” that he was excommunicated. You might enjoy reading about his experiences. Anyway after I shared my testimony he asked me that same question as you have. “How am I received within our church?” I said that I am careful how I express myself as the Holy Spirit has counseled me to. He said; ”Do people think you are weird?” I replied, “I would not say weird, just not understood, but loved. There is one sister in the church who I have shared many of my experiences and she has thanked me several times for the ministry she has received in our friendship and association. I expressed to him of my desire to find others with whom can I share these things so I can have some intelligent dialog. I did discover a few others while I was at the Peace Colloquy who are at some point beyond the current consciousness of our Faith community.
The second is an organization called the Temple of the Presence. The level of conscious of this organization expresses those same things that I have been given to understand. I have not found one thing within the teachings that does not compliment the consciousness of the Celestial Kingdom as it has been shown to me. This group embraces a cosmic consciousness that cuts across culture and religion. The Spiritual Hierarchy of the Universe is involved with this group and has for me added much clarification to otherwise abstract concepts. One of the most profound messages recently given was “Perfect Love” as this was the point I was at exactly at that point in time.